The Ugly Side of the Evangelical Church

I am guilty of everything I’m about to write.

I have participated in each and every ugly bullet point below.  And I repent for it.  I was wrong.  I was selfish. I followed Paul and Apollos instead of Jesus.

The following article is not an attempt to shame anyone.  I forgive every person in the Evangelical Church who has hurt me.  This article is a call for repentance.  I am attempting to hold a mirror up to the evangelical church and asking if they like what they see.

I am going to use coarse language to describe my sin.  The Bible uses coarse language to describe Israel’s sin.  But if coarse language offends you – you should stop reading now.

I know that many people have been hurt by the Evangelical Church – personally, I have been hurt and I have also been the one who caused damage.  I am sorry for those I have misled and I ask for God’s great mercy to heal anyone I wounded.

I have attended a total of seven Evangelical Churches in my 44 years.  At different times, I was a Director of Worship, Bible Study Leader, Youth Leader, Prayer Ministry Leader, and Women’s Ministry Leader. I am still an Evangelical.  I hold fast to the Word of God.  It is my foundation.  I also believe in all of the gifts of the spirit.  I am, what I would call, a Charismatic Baptist. 

My husband has helped me greatly in understanding my calling and has fully supported me throughout our 24-year marriage.  When I refer to “husbands” below – I am not referring to him personally.

I don’t always write heavy pieces – I mostly just want to help people become whole from their emotional trauma.  But it is the TRUTH that sets people free.  So the band aid must be ripped off and the veil pulled back - everything in the dark must be exposed to the light.  I am blowing the shofar (the trumpet) concerning the ugly practices of a good portion of the American Evangelical Church. 

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Whores

I was a whore.

I was a spiritual whore in several of my Evangelical Churches.

It’s what I was trained to be.  I was a woman who was not truly allowed to have power. My job as a church whore was to allow the men in my life to use my giftings, revelations, and talents to make them look good.  I was expected to have a man approve all of my decisions.  In my home, in my workplace, and in the church, if I did not have the OK from a man - the church considered me “out of order.”  I was trained by the church to believe that a man was always required to have the final say in my life in order for me to be one with Jesus.

So, to have any source of significance in the church, I was forced to be a whore – “one who sells themselves.”

I sold myself and my giftings to the church for acceptance.  My worship leading, my teaching gift, my administration gift – all of it.  I sold it to the men in my Evangelical Churches and took no credit at all.  I thought it was my duty to let them use me.  I just wanted to be holy.

I grew up being told that a woman’s place was to submit to men.  So then – when it came to my giftings I was forced to use them for men’s glory.  In the home – the church said I had to let my husband shine brighter than me.  So when we would go to be with church people, I would beg him not to be an introvert, because I would take the heat for it. 

In the church – I had to let men, in general, shine brighter.  On several occasions, pastors stole my revelations (new understandings from the Bible) for their own sermons.  As the Director of Worship, I would sometimes completely produce an entire Sunday morning with two services all by myself. Behind the scenes – I was the one who made the church look good.  But I would never take credit – nor be given credit for all of my hard work.  I believed the lie that I was supposed to give away everything for free so that the pastor could take the stage and he could shine with his gifting.

I look back now and see how differently I felt when I was working outside the church because the world mostly sees men and women as equals.  There wasn’t the pressure to perform to make my boss look good.  I was given credit when I achieved something or created something good.  But the pressure to stay home with my kids was another way to demand that I conform to the Evangelical Hive Mind.

I wanted desperately to please the  Hive Mind (read more here). I wanted to belong.  But to belong I had to play the role of whore:  Make the men in my life look good.  Make men feel good about themselves.  Sacrifice my self-respect.  Don’t make waves.  Just perform.  

In some kind of twisted way, I believed that “performing” for my pastors and elders in my church gave me some sort of power.  Somehow –  if I “performed” well enough they would see my worth and give me credit for my maturity and wisdom.  But it didn’t.  It just inclined them to use me more…

And so… I became a Madam.

Madams

A Madam is one who keeps the other whores in line.  She’s the one in charge of the whorehouse. Did you know that most Evangelical Churches who are “complementarian” have a Spiritual Madam?

It’s a necessary position.

I would correct women who weren’t letting their men shine brighter than they were.  I would reprimand women who weren’t taking a secondary role in the marriage.  I would warn the pastors about women who were “usurping” authority.  

In essence, I was the one insisting that women allow men to be their Masters.

In the complementarian Evangelical Church, if the men are not the Masters over women then they have no “man-hood.”  It is a stain on their masculinity if they are married to a strong willed, gifted woman.  We are directed to serve THEIR calling while ignoring our own.  We are controlled by contrived gender roles.

One time I had a Church Madam come to me and tell me that the Lord wanted me to submit my personality to my husband.  She said that if I would just tone it down a little that it would help my marriage.  So I was not free to be who God intended for me to be, I wasn’t allowed to have the outgoing, fun-loving personality God gave me – My husband and I were expected to manipulate our marriage so that we fit into the cookie cutter that was set forth for us by the Church.

There is a lie STILL perpetuated after all of these years that there is something inherently wrong with a woman and she cannot truly lead.

Because – you know what happened in the Garden of Eden don’t you?  It was “That woman’s” fault. (Genesis 3:12)  The perpetual lie is that we are still under the curse from the garden.  So women shall continually have men “ruling” over them… and if men are not ruling and women submitting, then we are not truly one with Jesus.  Never mind that Ephesians 5:21 comes before Ephesians 5:22.  As a Madam, it is important to ALWAYS start in verse 22.

The problem with this thinking is - that if the curse of gender roles from Genesis 3 is still in effect then the blood of Jesus was not enough to roll back the curse completely.

Somehow part of the Evangelical Church believes that the death, burial, and resurrection of Jesus was enough to roll back the curse of death – but not gender roles.

If we believe the lie that men must still rule over women – then a Church Madam is necessary to force the women to comply.

The Good Old Boys Club

The Good Old Boys Club in the Evangelical Church is the one that gets together behind closed doors …and decides.

They decide everything.

I hate to tell you this but most of them don’t seek the Lord.  They are putting their own plan in motion.  Because as far as they are concerned – they are the leaders the Lord has appointed so whatever is in their minds must be from God.

Sometimes it’s the Elder Board who makes up this club and sometimes it’s not.  Sometimes it’s just a few who have the Pastor’s ear.  They have invisible puppet strings attached to the pastor and they use him for their own purposes. 

When the pastor is a peacekeeper – He is never the true leader of the church – the Good Old Boys Club is the one in charge. 

Sometimes the pastor is the leader of the Good Old Boys Club.  When a pastor is overly insecure in his masculinity having this Club makes him feel like a man’s man.  As a woman in church leadership, I let this Club take advantage of me – because I thought it was the righteous thing to do.  I had no idea at the time, that I was being a whore.  I let the Good Old Boys Club use my gifts, talents, and influence to keep their positions as the Masters of the Church.

I will tell you a sad story that illustrates the Good Old Boys Club:   After I came out of my deception of being a Madam, I was part of a church in which it came to my attention that one of the pastors was asking the women he counseled if their sex life with their husband was satisfying.  The women didn’t feel like they could evade the question so they answered and the pastor proceeded to give them pointers on how to make it better.  He told them sexual positions to try and lingerie to buy and even websites to look at… all of this without their husband’s knowledge.

I approached the leadership of this church with proof and three witnesses about what this man was doing in his private meetings with women and nothing happened to this man at all.  He still retains his position.  He was not corrected nor reprimanded. He never asked for forgiveness from anyone.  This is because the Good Old Boys Club protected him.  They cared more for the reputation of this pastor than the women whose marriage beds had been violated.

I have witnessed a few Evangelical Churches where there was no Good Old Boys Club – but it was only because the pastor was humble enough to obey the Word and strong enough to disobey the Club.  Sometimes he survived – other times the Holy Huddle crucified him because he dared to rock the boat.

Holy Huddles

In many Evangelical Churches, peace is to be valued above all things.  It is the highest calling of the church to be at peace.  We believe the lie that if we are not at peace then we are not one with the Lord.  Because Jesus is peace.  Therefore, be quiet.  Do not disagree.  Do not point out flaws.  And especially do not point out sin.  If you point out sin – you will be ostracized and labeled a troublemaker.

I used to be a keeper of the peace.

I would tell people “Don’t rock the boat.  Be quiet about your complaint – it’s actually your issue.  Don’t judge. You’re being critical.  Have you really prayed enough for that person?  You are causing dissension…”

I really wasn’t keeping the peace.  I was forcing everyone to sweep their issues under the rug and be quiet about it.

For the most part, the church doesn’t really value peace.  We value quiet.

We value having our Holy Huddles where everyone pretends everything is all right.  Because peace is put on a pedestal and worshipped, anyone who causes conflict and doesn’t pretend everything is alright is not tracking with the Hive Mind.  Anyone who doesn’t value peace (or the absence of conflict) is put out of the Holy Huddle.

Sometimes dissent is allowed.  Usually only once.  But after that – after you’ve presented your case to the elders – now you are just whining.  Doesn’t matter how much scripture you have to back up what you are saying…  dealing with the actual issue will cause the boat to rock.  And we must have peace – or we are not one with Jesus.

Peace – whether it is real or false – must be abided by at all times!

In many of the Evangelical Churches, you must serve the Holy Huddle – or move along.  Unless you have money, if you have money – we will adapt the Holy Huddle to you.

Money Prostitutes

I wish this weren’t true, but it is.  I wish I had not participated, but I have…

Here are the bullet points of being a money prostitute in the church.

The “givers” in the church must be tended to.  Give them special treatment.  Take their phone calls.  Answer their questions. Give them leadership responsibilities.  Name parts of the building after them.

The Church service must not only please the givers it must also reach the young people.  There are rules and regulations about worship.  If they are not abided by, people will withhold their money.  So we listen carefully to the comment cards of those who give more money.

One time at an Evangelical Church I attended, I had taken steps to start a 7 days a week Prayer Ministry.  The pastor had been very supportive, it was growing and people were coming to prayer meetings we would have every single day at the church.  I was excited to actually make some headway into ministry and be able to fill a hole that was sorely needed at this church.  Until one day, I spoke from the platform about something God had laid on my heart in prayer and I offended the Church Madam whose family gave a great deal of money.  She complained to the pastor and I was brought in to his office – not to make peace with her, nor even to face her.  The pastor brought me in and gave me an ultimatum to face Church discipline or to step down from ministry.  I knew I had done nothing wrong and that this pastor was bowing to money.  So I stepped down.

Jealousy and greed are ugly.

Most Evangelical Churches are struggling for money.  So when we cannot raise enough money within the church to do what we would like to do, then we look to the world and use Babylon’s methods like grants and fundraisers to find enough money to keep our Church dream alive.

Because addressing why people aren’t truly tithing would cause waves – and we must have peace above all things.  Addressing why there is a financial famine from the God who owns the cattle on a thousand hills might cause us to have to address our own sin.

So we manipulate and find the money to at least give the perception that we have a “Picture Perfect Church.”  Money helps us to keep our veils in place.

Veils

The Evangelical Church believes that the church needs to appeal to the consumers in the community.  Instead of actually being the church, where we REACH OUT and clothe the poor and feed the hungry and offer mercy, we focus on what kind of veils will attract the community to our church.  When you are caught up in the consumerism of church, it is hard to see the truth beyond the veil that God doesn’t consider His Church to be made with bricks and mortar.  He considers His Church to be made with people.

There are several kinds of veils to keep people interested and oblivious to what is actually happening behind the scenes.

There are veils of “niceness.”

We don’t really speak the truth to one another – that would upset the delicate balance of peace. Conflict means that we are not one with Jesus.

So we’re nice.

We either ignore complainers.  Or tell them that they are completely right – but we never change the thing they bring forth.

We placate.  We may wine and dine the complainers for a moment – hoping they’ll be quiet.  We do it in the name of love.  But really we’re doing it so they’ll fall in line.  We’re doing it to placate our own soul.

And then…whether or not the dissenters listen, we have been nice.

We want to be one with Jesus and Jesus would have been nice.

There are veils of “worship.”

Take it from me, as a former Director of Worship…if we can pull of a killer worship service, people will overlook a lot.  If we dress it up and make it sound semi-professional, if we make people feel a little bit lighter because of the worship service, they are willing to look past some of the more unsavory things happening just to get their weekly dose of peace.

This is similar to David singing and worshiping before King Saul.  It brought him a little peace from his torment.  He would get a little relief from his demon but never truly repent.  In a way, this is what a worship veil does.  We give the people a little relief from their torment – but never truly pull back the veil of the cause of their torment, which is sin.

We also used to do a huge Easter production every year and the whole church would be filled with Believers, being blessed by the story they already knew.  When we shifted it to an outreach type of program, no one came.  No one brought anyone.  We were a consumer church with the wrong priorities.

There are veils of “outward appearance.”

Going to a church with a really nice building appeals to the consumerism of the world – so we build really nice facilities to cover up any flaws in the internal structure of the church.

We offer the latest and greatest programs, which again, appeal to the consumers who are looking for a church – but offering them a beautiful building and dynamic programs instead of Jesus causes people to worship their own comfort and peace. 

The veil of outward appearance leaves us with a shallow church who does not truly know the Man they claim to be serving.

In a way, this veil allows the people to accept Jesus, without turning away from the world.  But the truth is –  you can’t have the Kingdom of Heaven without repenting.

Calling people to repent of their sin rocks the boat and disturbs the peace of the status quo – and the Evangelical Church is all about their (false) peace.

Sin is messy.  It takes courage to call people on their sin – especially in this day and age when you will be called judgmental or unloving.  But Jesus called people on their sin ALL. THE. TIME!

When I was a whore to the Evangelical Church, I was more concerned with the appearance of the church than I was with the hearts of people.  I did not want the world to hate us.  I wanted them to want Jesus and think He was cool.  So I helped to create veils that would make Christianity inviting.

I did not preach Christ, nor the truth that accepting Him includes forsaking the world.

When I was a whore, I pretended to play church but I really didn't build His Church. I built a comfortable "paneled house" but His true Church was left in ruins. This is why there is a drought in the American Evangelical Church.  We are guilty of the same sin of the Israelites after they returned from exile.  We're building ourselves a house - but not Him.

2 This is what the Lord Almighty says: “These people say, ‘The time has not yet come to rebuild the Lord’s house.’”

3 Then the word of the Lord came through the prophet Haggai: 4 “Is it a time for you yourselves to be living in your paneled houses, while this house remains a ruin?”

5 Now this is what the Lord Almighty says: “Give careful thought to your ways. 6 You have planted much, but harvested little. You eat, but never have enough. You drink, but never have your fill. You put on clothes, but are not warm. You earn wages, only to put them in a purse with holes in it.”

7 This is what the Lord Almighty says: “Give careful thought to your ways. 8 Go up into the mountains and bring down timber and build my house, so that I may take pleasure in it and be honored,” says the Lord. 9

“You expected much, but see, it turned out to be little. What you brought home, I blew away. Why?” declares the Lord Almighty. “Because of my house, which remains a ruin, while each of you is busy with your own house.

10 Therefore, because of you the heavens have withheld their dew and the earth its crops. 11 I called for a drought on the fields and the mountains, on the grain, the new wine, the olive oil and everything else the ground produces, on people and livestock, and on all the labor of your hands.”  (Haggai 1:2-11)

Epilogue

I’m sorry.

I’m sorry for playing my part in all of these ugly things.  I’m sorry for insisting on false peace.  I’m sorry for insisting on cookie cutter Christianity.  I’m sorry for being a whore to the Evangelical Churches who had a Hive Mind instead of the mind of Christ.

Women should be completely equal to men.  If they are not – then the fullness of the cross will never be realized.  Jesus paid the price for ALL sin, including Eve’s.  In doing so, the cross wiped out the curse from the Garden of Eden. There is no male or female in Christ.  Women are not second class citizens.  We carry half of the image of Christ – without women in leadership, the Church does not really have the whole picture.

When Paul said women should be silent – he was speaking to a specific group of women who had gotten rowdy.  Jesus told women to speak up – specifically, He told Mary Magdalene to go and tell his male disciples that He had risen.   A woman was the first preacher of the gospel.  So, obviously, Paul did not mean ALL women should be silent and “not be permitted to teach men.”  Jesus told a woman to go and “teach” a new revelation to His disciples.

When the Evangelical Church separates men and women like this they become guilty of spiritual homosexuality.  Spiritual homosexuality happens when only men are allowed to “birth” things in the church.  Only men are allowed to make decisions.  Only men are allowed to do the teaching.  Having only men in Church leadership means that there is only one gender that is allowed to “spiritually parent” the Church.

There are hearts in the Church who are crying out for true mothers.  Not whores, but Spiritual Mothers who have authority to comfort and correct and teach and nurture.  There is a GREAT need in the Body of Christ for the comfort that only Spiritual Mothers can bring.  The only roles that were given to the genders in the Garden of Eden were that of a Father and a Mother.  Both are necessary to create life.  Both are necessary to raise healthy children.  Right now – most of the Evangelical Church is only allowed to have Spiritual Fathers.  True Spiritual Mothers aren’t kept behind their husband as though they are invisible.  True Spiritual Mothers work alongside the Spiritual Fathers and have equal say over the raising of the children.

God’s original intention and Christ’s subsequent redemption was that men and women would be one flesh and rule over the earth together.

God needs us to become one.  We need both male and female to spiritually birth things.  This is not achieved by females becoming invisible so that males can lead.  We need each other.

Once, God used me to correct a young man from his sin and then him free in a miraculous way at an Evangelical Church.  It was truly an amazing thing to witness God’s presence as He led me in using my gift of discernment and my tools of deliverance to set him free from his sin.  But after the amazing awe-filled evening, I was told that I couldn’t take any credit for what happened.  I was told, “God did it… not you.”

I was stunned for a moment that this elder was not even going to give me any credit for what he had just witnessed.  I had taken great risk to call out this young man’s sin.  I had used a gifting that came from God but that I spent years developing my character to use.  I had also trained myself to use tools of deliverance.  Yes, God did it – but He was able to use me because I was mature enough to use them.

I was a Spiritual Mother to this young man because I cared for his destiny more than I cared to upset him.  But the elder can’t afford to give a woman credit for setting this man free.  It would upset the apple cart of the spiritual homosexuality that he and the Good Old Boys have so carefully preserved.  I was a better elder to this young man than the male elders had been.  They knew he was sinning and no one was willing to cause conflict in order to set him free.

I know it’s ugly.

But it must be dealt with.  I am sorry for my part in oppressing women in the Evangelical Church. I’m sorry for promoting spiritual homosexuality.  I’m sorry for manipulating people for their money. I’m sorry for creating a Holy Huddle of self-righteousness.  And I am sorry for covering all of it with a veil of “niceness.”   I hope that through this confession that some will see behind the veil and repent.

There is nothing in this life that I take more seriously than Judgement Day.  When I stand before the Lord and bow my knee, I want to hear “Well done, good and faithful one!”

It is for this purpose – wanting my brothers and sisters in the Evangelical Church to hear “Well done!” – that I dare to rock the boat.

Are you willing to give up your false peace in order to take a long, hard look into this mirror?

As a woman in the Evangelical Church, I want to be united with men.  I want to be of one heart and one mind.  I don’t want to be “over” men – I want to rule alongside men, the way the Lord intended.  

I want to be Mary Magdalene who comes and tells you a new revelation that God has given me.  But if you ignore me the way the disciples did Mary… if you steal my revelation from God and claim it for your own… if I’m invisible and you think that women should be silent and only here for the lifting up of men – you relegate me to being a whore.

And I refuse to be one anymore.

 

Benevolent Patriarchy – is still Patriarchy

I have been around the block in the Church concerning the role of women. In my lifetime, I have experienced churches that have wide differences in how they see women fitting into the Kingdom of God.

Some churches believe women should adhere strictly to all of the cultural laws spelled out for women in the New Testament. Head coverings, not speaking in church, only allowed to teach children, no seats on any leadership team. Their husbands are the “head” of the home which is interpreted to mean “boss.” Men have the final say on everything, in the church and in the home.

Some churches believe in the fullness of women’s rights inside the Kingdom. “No male or female in Christ” is interpreted to mean that a woman can take on any duty in the church from janitor to pastor. The term “One Flesh” is taught to mean that a wife is equal to a husband and that they mutually submit to one another.

Most of the churches I have attended fall somewhere in between those two parameters. The middle of the road churches try to straddle the fence on the woman question. Can a woman be an elder or a pastor in the New Testament?

If you have followed my ministry for any length of time you already know where I stand on this issue.

I do not believe in Patriarchy or Feminism in the Church. (click here for more)

Scripture says we are all created equal and also were given equal authority in the Garden of Eden. When Christ died on the cross, he rolled back the curse all the way to the Garden of Eden and Men and Women should now rule over the earth together in the same way Adam and Eve did.

I know that the Church struggles with scripture when it comes to male headship. They feel that if they allow women to be elders or pastors that they are not adhering to scripture. Elders being the “husband of but one wife” is taken literally. Therefore, no women can be elders or pastors because Paul’s verse in 1 Timothy 3:2 was directed to the male gender. They also interpret the verse in 1 Corinthians 14:34 without any cultural background, therefore they believe Paul was saying that women should remain silent in church this meant that they cannot preach.

Except if we look more closely at New Testament scripture we find that Junia was an apostle. (Romans 16:7) Priscilla taught men and was in charge of a church alongside her husband. (Acts 18:23) (1 Corinthians 16:19) And Mary Magdalene was the first preacher of the gospel message. (John 20:17)

The Old Testament has plenty of examples of women in leadership Deborah, Huldah, Miriam, Ruth, and Esther.

God needs women. We are one-half of His image. He is going to pour out His spirit on us and we are going to prophesy and dream and see visions and do miracles and do spiritual warfare and LEAD!

Women are going to LEAD in this end time harvest. It doesn’t matter what the leadership of churches decide to do or not to do with their elder boards. Women are going to lead whether or not they have permission from men… because we have permission from God. If you don’t let us lead inside the Church then we’ll lead from outside of the Church.

Some men pat themselves on the back and say – “Well at least we let women on the stage, or at least we let women be in charge of the youth, or at least we let women be Trustees or Deacons, or at least we let women give a word on Sundays – We’re not as mean as other Patriarchal churches.”

What they are really saying is "at least we’re benevolent."

They say – “We may not allow women to sit at the elder table or preach but at least we’re nice about it.”

This my friends is still Patriarchy. When women are not given their full rights that Jesus paid for on the Cross because men believe they are still the “boss” of women – this is Patriarchy, no matter how nice you are about it.

Women have been set free from being second-class citizens in the Church. Jesus did it. His blood is enough. It’s time to get off the fence and allow women to have full liberty in God’s Kingdom.

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A new wave of revival is coming. But God is going to have women sitting at the leadership table this time.

And if you don’t let women have a seat at the table – then God will bring revival through them and you’ll have to get to go through a woman to get to the River!

Benevolent Patriarchy is still Patriarchy.

Feminism Off the Rails: Reclaiming the Fight for Equality for Women

I remember in my third grade Sunday School class meeting a new little girl who was a guest.  During the class our Sunday School teacher asked us what we wanted to be when we grew up.  The little girl said, “I want to be the President of the United States.”  My first thought was,

that’s stupid, girls can’t be President.

But as her words haunted me I remember my thought pattern shifting,

why couldn’t a girl be President?

It’s amazing that women in the US have only had the right to vote for 100 years.  As I have researched the waves of feminism that have swept across our country since its inception, I have been inspired by Christian women in our history who have stood up and demanded equality with the opposite gender.

Women have achieved so much in the past 100 years.  We are equal when it comes to the government recognizing our rights.  We are not so equal in other areas as Patriarchy still has its clutches in  some churches and in the hearts and minds of some men in the marketplace.  (I have experienced both of these personally.)   We are still making progress and I expect that by the time the good Lord takes me home that Equality for Women in our nation will be fully realized.

The goal of feminism used to be to strive to be equal to men.  The goal was to have a say in the world we lived in. The goal was never to be the “Masters” of men or to have abortion on demand.  It was to be valued as equal people having equal say and equal pay.

The new Feminists seem to be purporting the idea that they cannot feel truly free unless they are the ones who are ruling over men.  The pendulum swings both ways – both Patriarchy and Feminism are now in a ditch.  And both of these ditches are in error.  Feminism was supposed to be about claiming equality for women… but it has turned into a hate spewing, lawless, prideful, female "b*tch fest."

Listen, it was definitely true that women were held back by the decisions of men who chose to hold the reins in the beginning of this nation.  There are still pockets of men ruling over women in our society.  There are still pockets of men who overly objectify women and think that women are for their sexual pleasure.  Each of these pockets is in need of warriors who will fight the inequality.   

But today’s feminists have gone completely off the rails by not recognizing their own fault in some of the areas that they still lack equality.  You cannot glorify some of the things that Hollywood puts out and then whine because you are being objectified.  If we are truly going to be equal then we are going to have to stop being victims.  We already know of an “equality model” that works.

Martin Luther King Jr. showed us how to fight effectively for change.  First and foremost we must believe that our rights come from God.  And we believe that He wants women to be fully restored to the rights we had in the Garden of Eden.  We are equal to but not “over” a man. 

As we look at MLK’s example, we need to practice civil disobedience when necessary – but we do not use violence.  We let justice do its work.  We point out inconsistencies where women are not being treated fairly, but we do not become offended and lose our cool.  We don’t get off message.  We don’t let someone into power who uses the position for their own gain.  (Unfortunately, after MLK died, people who used their position for dishonest gain railroaded the fight for equality for African Americans.  Now racism is a business and corruption and greed keeps the fires alive.)

Women still have some ground to gain in this fight for equality but the word “feminism” is too tainted for us to use anymore.  We must return to the original intent and fight for Suffrage on all fronts.  We must fight for Suffrage (the right to vote/have power) in the home, in the church, in the government, and in the marketplace.

In an ongoing conversation about our fight we must remember these things if we are going to be successful:

1. The fight for suffrage cannot be a single-minded cult.  Equality includes free speech and free thought.

2. Male strength is not bad.

3. Female strength is not bad.

4. Not all men are guilty.

5. Gender equality must also include equality for men.

Men and women can both be powerful, through mutual submission and a healthy fear of the Lord.  I invite men and women to seek the Lord for their role in seeing the powerfulness of Adam and Eve becoming One Flesh again!  The blood of Jesus paid to reverse the curse all the way back down to the first sin.  Men need women and women need men.

Let us reclaim the fight from the bitter and angry women who have taken it hostage!  Let us fight for Suffrage instead of Feminism.

(Men, we can’t do it without you.)

You are all sons of God through faith in Christ Jesus, for all of you who were baptized into Christ have clothed yourselves with Christ. There is neither Jew nor Greek, slave nor free, male nor female, for you are all one in Christ Jesus. If you belong to Christ, then you are Abraham's seed, and heirs according to the promise.  (Galatians 3:26-29)

How Patriarchy and the Five Fold Ministry Cannot Co-Exist

I’ve been pretty clear before about my views on Patriarchy.  You can find my previous articles

HERE

and

HERE

.

I wholeheartedly believe that women and men are equal in the church.  God did not assign gender roles to Adam and Eve.  That only occurred after the fall.  Since Christ has redeemed us from the curse – it is our right to live in the full Liberty of all that He bought for us on the cross.  This means redemption from the all of the effects of our sin in the Garden of Eden.

Recently in my articles, I have been focusing on the Five Fold Ministry and how they work and flow in today’s church.  You can find an explanation of the

Five Fold Ministry for Beginners HERE

and an explanation of how the

Five Fold Ministry flows together HERE

I now want to explain why the Five Fold Ministry and Patriarchy cannot co-exist.

Patriarchy is the basic presumption that Men Rule.  Husbands are the rulers of the home and men are the rulers in the church.   In Patriarchy, men have the final say.

However, God gave women the gifts of the Five Fold Ministry.  There are women who are gifted to be Apostles, Prophets, Pastors, Teachers, and Evangelists.  In the New Testament, Junia was a female apostle (Romans 16:7), Phillip’s daughters were prophets (Acts 21:9),  Phoebe had the gift of pastor (Romans 16:1) as did Nympha (Colossians 4:15), Priscilla taught Apollos (Acts 18:26),  the woman at the well was the first female evangelist (John 4:28-29).

The promise of the outpouring of God’s spirit is given to both men and women. 

Acts 2:17-18 In the last days, God says, I will pour out my Spirit on all people.  Your sons and daughters will prophesy, your young men will see visions, your old men will dream dreams. Even on my servants, both men and women, I will pour out my Spirit in those days, and they will prophesy.

And Paul states that we are all one in Christ all nations and both genders.

Galatians 3:28  There is neither Jew nor Gentile, neither slave nor free, nor is there male and female, for you are all one in Christ Jesus.

Women who are called to be apostles, prophets, pastors, teachers and evangelists cannot also be subject to Patriarchy.  Husbands do not get to rule over the gifting of their wives.  The gifting came from God – He is the ruler over the gifting.

My husband has never desired to rule over me – he has always wanted to be partners.  I know I am blessed to have a husband who understands this.  My husband’s gifting is pastor.  He is a very good pastor.  He cares for the hearts of the sheep.  He shepherds our sons and he shepherds his friends at his workplace.  When we do ministry together, I can always count on him to give me a pastor’s perspective on where we are headed.  I am grateful for his gifting – because it is not mine.

My gifting is more apostolic and prophetic.  I have a governing and guiding gift in which I have a deep desire to hear from heaven and govern in a way that leads us toward God’s Kingdom.

If my husband and I lived in a patriarchal home – I would constantly be submitting my apostolic/prophetic gifting to a man who has a pastoral gift.  I would have to get permission to use my gifting from someone who doesn’t understand the gifts that I carry.  This would be a disaster!

It can be the same thing in a church.   If a woman has a teaching gift, but she must submit that teaching gift to a man first, it takes away her freedom to follow the Lord.  It puts a man between the Lord and the woman.  This should never happen.  The Lord is the head of woman too.  He is the head of the Church. 

Women should be free to use their gifts without having to get a man’s approval first.

I have seen women leaders in the church get an assignment from the Lord, but instead of carrying it out – they didn’t want to hurt their husband’s ego.  So they gave their assignment to their husband, who did not have the gifting to carry out the assignment.  The assignment from the Lord ended up being spiritually aborted because of Patriarchy and the fear of man.

Patriarchy and the Five Fold Ministry cannot co-exist.  Because the Five Fold Ministry must be carried out by both men and women.    To fully understand God’s plan, we must have His full image.  

Men are half of the image of God and women are the other half.  If only men are allowed to have the final say through the Five Fold Ministry – you will only get half the image of God, and it will end up in spiritual abortion.

Neither men nor women are complete without the other gender.  If we are going to fulfill the call of Ephesians 4 … if we are going to truly equip his people for works of service and build up the body, we must include men and women in the Five Fold Ministry without insisting that men have the final say. It is only then that we will all reach unity in the faith and become mature, attaining to the whole measure of the fullness of Christ.

The Problem with Feminism and Patriarchy in the Church

I’ve been in some form of church leadership for most of the past 18 years.  I’ve been a witness to both patriarchy and feminism in the church.  I’ve been knocked over a few times by the pendulum that swings back and forth between them.

A patriarchy culture

is centered around men and their view point.  In short, patriarchy says, “Men have the final say.”  This culture believes that the Bible gives men and husbands the ultimate authority in the home and the church.  Their interpretation the Word is that God has made men “the boss” and if they are not “the boss” they are being disobedient to the Lord.

A feminist culture

is centered around women and their view point.  It leans towards the feminine part of God’s character and seeks to emasculate men, forcing them to be more feminine in how they relate to God and how they depict Him.  Women who have suffered oppression tend to fear powerlessness, so they seek power in order to feel safe.  When the culture is centered on the female gender, it makes these women feel safe.

The problem is that both Feminism and Patriarchy are perversions of what God intended for the relationship between male and female to be.

He intended for males and females to work together.  He did not create one more important than another.  After the fall, there was a curse of imbalanced relationship, but after Jesus died… he rolled back the curse.  ALL of it - to before the fall.

If the church is centered around one gender, and there is only one viewpoint represented at the leadership table, then we only have half the image of God.

If the church has only men at the leadership table and does not include women who are anointed by God to also lead – they only have half of the game plan.  Because there are women in the congregation with the other half.  You cannot see all of God’s vision for a church without having both male and female perspectives on what He is saying.

If a church is heavily influenced by female leadership and doesn’t allow for the wild and boisterous side of men, if churches try to tame men into being more feminine, they too, only have half of the image of God.  If they don’t allow for the warrior part of who men are to influence leadership, they are not seeing the complete picture for their church.

When God created man, he made him in the likeness of God. He created them male and female and blessed them. And when they were created, he called them "man.”

  Genesis 5:1-2

The likeness of God has two parts.  One of them is male.  One of them is female.  One without the other is incomplete.

I have witnessed churches who were built on a Patriarchy foundation have struggles within the church, who were in need of a solution.  But they missed God’s solution because there was a woman in the congregation that had the answer to their struggle.  They either refused to listen or she simply didn’t give it to them because she knew her instructions were not welcome.

I have also witnessed worship services that lean heavily toward the feminine part of God while ignoring or even demeaning the fierce lion part of His masculine side.  I’ve seen preachers who have been emasculated from preaching with a warrior passion from the pulpit because it might offend some.

We must allow both the male and female characteristics of God to have its full expression in the church if we are going to experience the fullness of God’s glory.

We need both fathers and mothers in the church.  One is not more important than the other.  They are both necessary and they should both have equal influence. 

Jesus was neither a feminist nor a proponent of patriarchy.  Jesus was a suffragist.  He took the cultural restraints off of women during His ministry on earth and gave them the right to vote in His kingdom.  Jesus gave women the right to have influence in His church.  When the veil was torn as he died on the cross, it opened the Holy of Holies to both men and women.  We now have equal access to God through the blood of Jesus.

Not a Patriarch:  Jesus Trusted Women With His Message

The first person to have witnessed the resurrection and understand the gospel of Christ was Mary Magdalene.  Jesus told her to “Go and tell my brothers” this new revelation she just received. (John 20)

But the brothers wouldn’t listen to her.  She had a true revelation from God but they refused the female message of the resurrection. 

“He  [Jesus] rebuked them for their lack of faith and their stubborn refusal to believe those who had seen him after he had risen.”

 Mark 16:14.

Jesus meant for his own disciples to LISTEN to a female about her revelation.

Not a Feminist:  Paul Corrected the Women of Corinth

The Corinthian church lived in a feminist culture.  The goddess Diana was worshiped in their pagan community.   The female persuasion had more influence than it should have in the kingdom.

Paul corrected the heavily female influenced church in 1 Corinthians 14:34.  He brought correction to the women for disrupting worship and for talking when they should have been listening.  The women needed to be rebuked and brought into a unity with the men instead of bringing distraction. 

(I would argue that Paul did not mean that all women should be silent in church and only speak to their husbands – this would contradict the message that Jesus gave to Mary Magdalene and also it would mean that the rest of 1 Corinthians 12 and 14 would only apply to men.)

No Male or Female in Christ

If we are truly going to rise up and be a unified Church, we must come to the understanding that men are not the masters of women and women are not the masters of men.

We are equally the image of God.  And we are equally necessary for the Body of Christ to function.

God has arranged the parts in the body, every one of them, just as he wanted them to be.  If they were all one part,

(or one gender)

where would the body be?  As it is, there are many parts, but one body… God has combined the members of the body… so that there should be no division in the body, but that its parts should have equal concern for each other.  1 Corinthians 12:18-25

(emphasis mine)

If each person is in the right place in the Body of Christ – there is no reason to be jealous of anyone else.  There is no reason to try to be the master of another.   Men should not feel emasculated by a woman in leadership and women should not feel that the culture must be focused on them in order to have worth.

Our identity must come from Christ.  Together we are His image.

Jesus was neither a feminist nor a patriarch.  He called for mutual submission of the genders.  The church will be all that it was called to be once we have the full image of God represented in His house.

This is my prayer,

Lord in these last days pour out Your spirit on both men and women and arrange us to form the Body You need for us to be.  Lord please make us one.

For more on the difference between a feminist and suffragist click HERE.

My Journey Out of Bondage to Male Headship

(It is impossible to fully share one's heart in a 1200 word blogpost.  To get a clear understanding of my take on church leadership and the role of women in it  - read THIS article on Patriarchy in the Church first by clicking HERE.)

My husband and I both grew up in “Patriarchal” homes.  Our fathers were the “head” of the home in the sense that they believed it their job to be the “boss” of the home.  My husband Tom will write about his own journey out of the Patriarch Matrix (the false belief system where men are required to rule over their homes) in the coming weeks.

Today I will share with you my journey out of the Prison of Male Headship.

I always loved music.  I grew up taking band and choir every single year in school.  I majored in music education and enjoyed teaching general music and choir at a K-12 school in rural Indiana after college. 

After my first son was born, I knew it was time to walk away from teaching.  At the time, I thought God was calling me to be home with my infant son, but in hindsight that was not His plan.

I began leading worship once a month at the American Baptist Church I belonged to.  I simply fell in love with leading worship.  It was the 90s and we were just transitioning out of the “all hymn” mode.  There was new life in church worship as new songs were being released all the time.

My worship leading turned into an internship and I was soon hired as the Director of Worship at my church.  So now, four months after I leave teaching, I find myself in church leadership.  I was 26 years old.

Looking back, I understand now that the Lord wanted me to begin to learn about church leadership in all of its beauty and warts.  I had zeal back then but not real knowledge.  My naiveté was actually a blessing as I made mistakes that were purely out of innocence in not knowing the “rules of male headship” in church leadership.

My father had a glass ceiling for women.  There were rules and regulations we were “programmed” with growing up.  We were taught that “head of the house” meant we were at his beck and call.  He was the boss and had the final say - there were no arguments.  We were women.  We were beneath men and we were reminded of our place.  We were to learn to serve our husbands, this was what we were created for.

I thought to myself –

well it’s just because of how my dad grew up.  He’s just not wise to the modern age of women.  Surely the church would embrace me and allow me to be free to climb to my purpose.

How wrong I was!  My immaturity about the glass ceilings for women in the church was about to be remedied.

In my late 20s, I pursued God with everything that was in me.  I prayed. I worshiped. I fasted. I read the word.  Pretty soon, I was getting downloads of revelation from God.  God would give me scripture verses to give to other people.  (This is the Baptist way of prophesying.

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My husband did not hit his spiritual growth spurt until his 30s.  I remember pondering in my heart that I should put my spiritual growth on hold until my husband caught up because I didn’t want to be out from under his “covering.”  The Holy Spirit spoke to me in such a strong way that made me fear the Lord, He said, “Tisha you cannot wait for your husband.  You must grow now to receive all that I have for you.  I will bring him along in time.  But do not stop growing in Me!”

I felt these words of conviction so strongly that I set aside my desire to be one with my husband in order to be one with God.  I had several other promises from God that my husband and I would be equally yoked one day but I could not wait for him in the meantime.  And of course – we are now more equally yoked than ever and

I am really enjoying our One Flesh relationship.  (Read more about that HERE.)

Well – let me tell you – the church was not at all happy that I was more spiritually mature than my husband.  It was just crazy the things people would say to me!  I believed some of these lies for awhile, but as God kept calling me higher, there came a point that I could no longer abide by the rules of men and still grow with God.  So I chose to go with God and I scorned the shame that was being thrown at me.

“Do you have your husband’s permission?”

  (am I a child?)

“You must let your husband spiritually lead you.”

(but he can’t at this stage)

“As a Godly woman, you should desire to be at home with your children

.” (but I am called by God to lead outside the home)

“Tisha, you need to submit your personality to your husband.”

  (So I am to lay down who God created me to be so my husband can have the perceived limelight?)

All of these lies come from the distorted view that the “headship of men” makes them the boss of women.  This couldn’t be further from the truth.  God did not create one gender to be the master of another.  (side note: neither should women be the “masters” of men.)

As I reached the end of my 20s, God kept calling me higher than men would allow me to go.  There were a few times I told God He was being “unbiblical” about what He was calling me to do.  But He kept bringing more and more scripture to light that completely debunked the “accepted interpretation” of the male headship scriptures.

He reminded me that Ephesians 5:21 came before Ephesians 5:22.  “Submit to one another out of the fear of the Lord” (v21) came before “wives submit to your husbands” (vs22)  But whenever male leaders would quote this passage they would start with verse 22 and skip verse 21.

He showed me that the Proverbs 31 woman did not ask for permission from her husband to buy and sell land.  He showed me that Mary Magdalene was the first preacher of the gospel in John 20.  She had a revelation of Jesus that his own disciples did not yet have and she was TOLD by Jesus to go and tell them the revelation. 

The phrase One Flesh is used in the Bible 8 different times when describing marriage.   This is what my husband and I have pursued… a One Flesh relationship.  The Holy Spirit has said to my husband that his job in fulfilling “headship” over the home is to be the “overseer” not the “boss.”  This brings great freedom to me as I pursue my calling in the Lord.

However, when it comes to the church leadership, male headship is defined as “boss.”

I had a vision one day of climbing a ladder and continuously hitting glass ceilings. There was a ladder far across the room that had a lower glass ceiling than the one I was climbing.  I instinctively knew that the ladder across the room was my earthly father’s ladder and the ceiling was low for women. The ladder I was on was the ladder of my spiritual fathers.  The ceiling was a little higher than that of my dad’s.   I was stuck because the Lord kept calling me higher but there was a big chunk of ice on my ladder that kept me from climbing any further.

I beat on the ice with my fist and said, “God I hear you calling but I cannot climb any higher!”

I then saw a ladder being laid next to the one I was on.  All I had to do was step over to the new ladder.

I heard the Holy Spirit say these words.  “The answer to the glass ceiling is … get a new ladder!”

There were no glass ceilings at all on this ladder – I knew it was the ladder of the Lord.  I did not have to submit any longer to the rules and regulations that “male headship” said I must follow.

I am free to climb at the Lord’s command.  Every time I hit a glass ceiling I realize I am not on the right ladder and I do not complain.  I do not whine.  I know I am not powerless.  I simply get on God’s ladder and keep climbing.

As a woman I know stuff.  I know stuff about the Kingdom that no one else does.  Because, just like everyone else, I have a slice of God that no one else has. I have a message from the Lord for both men and women.  They are free to listen or not.  I will not be judged by how many hearers I have.  I will be judged according to whether or not I completed my assignment.

Male headship is biblical.  Man’s interpretation of male headship is a prison for women.

How Patriarchy Is Killing the American Church

Let me begin this discourse by saying I am not a feminist.  I think the word feminist has been hijacked by women who hate men.  Even though there are some women with right motives using the word “feminist”, I honestly think there is no way to redeem that word in our culture.  Furthermore, I think feminism in America was birthed on the wrong foundation.  It as birthed with a seed that was saturated in selfishness and anger.  Those kinds of seeds only produce more selfishness and anger.

However… I AM a suffragist.

A suffragist believes that women should be equal to men and have the right to vote.  We are equal to men in every way.  Not over men, but also not under them.  Not angry at men, but not subservient either. Women should not be second class citizens who have no power.

(Read about the difference between Feminists and Suffragists by clicking here.)

Women deserve the right to vote in every facet of society.  They deserve the right to vote in the government, in the marketplace, in the home and in the church.  Women deserve the right to influence policy in all of these areas.  Women’s suffrage is the persistence that women deserve equality with men.

Our nation was founded in a Patriarchal society where men had all of the power and the women had none.  This largely was due to the church at that time.

pa·tri·arch·y

a system of society or government in which men hold the power and women are largely excluded from it.

The false belief system of Patriarchy teaches that women in general should be subject to men. The Bible teaches no such thing.  This belief system begins with the lie that Eve was created to be a helper to Adam and serve Adam’s needs.  This couldn’t be further from the truth. The woman’s purpose was to help Adam rule and reign over the earth… not to support Adam so he could do all of the ruling and reigning.  She was created to HELP Adam co-reign.  Eve was Adam’s equal.

“Women are not to be the de facto slaves of men. Women are created with dignity equal to that of men. Women have direct and unmediated access to God. Daughters should not be taught that their only and ultimate purpose in life is to be the “helpmeet” of a man. While being a godly wife is a worthy ideal, the only statement that is universally true for every woman is that she should love and serve God as her highest priority.”

  Michael Farris, HSLDA Chairman and Chancellor of Patrick Henry College

Women have made great strides in equality in government and in the marketplace.  There are still some unbalanced scales of justice that need to be balanced in these areas – but there is progress and I can believe that we will see equality in these areas in my lifetime. 

However when it comes to Christendom, women are not equal in the home or the church.  We lag far behind in the effort to see true power being restored to women.  I will leave addressing the lack of equality in the home to another time.  But I do want to address the inequality for women in the church and how it is destroying the American church.

I have been involved in some sort of church leadership in small town America since 1999 when I was 26 years old.  I would have to say I have pretty much experienced every kind of rejection from men AND women that you can imagine. 

When sharing my “calling” with men, I have been slapped with legalistic Bible phrases and told that women simply weren’t born with the right mind to lead because they were more susceptible to deception.  Mind you,

I was given my calling by God...not men. (click here to read more)

I had an older woman pull me aside once and say honey, you need to stop this leadership thing and go back to your husband and fulfill whatever calling he has.  When I asked her what she thought Deborah did?  She replied that Deborah probably washed her husband’s clothes and fixed him supper.

One time I when I was trying to describe my heart about a woman’s place in church leadership to an elder, that we wanted to be partners with him in leadership, like that of a wife… he retorted that “a woman has been trouble before and she’ll be trouble again.”

In the Garden of Eden, Eve was not given to Adam to help him fulfill his calling.  She was given the same calling as Adam.  Adam had his gifts – Eve had hers.  Together they were one flesh and they were told to rule over the earth.  They co-reigned.

I refuse to comply with Christian patriarchy anymore.  I have a voice.  I have a purpose from God.  I intend to climb to the fullness of who God called “woman” to be.  I invite men to climb this mountain with me – It is my proposition that we reign over the earth together as men and women, as Adam and Eve did, the way God intended.

I am not a b*tch.  I am not a Jezebel. 

I am however – Deborah, Esther, Miriam, Lydia and Phoebe all rolled into one.  I am powerful because of who God created me to be.  I usurp authority from no one.  I simply demand the right to use the influence I was given in the Garden of Eden.  I am half of “man.”  I am half of “Adam.”  

Without the voice of Eve, Adam is only half right.

Women see things from a perspective that men cannot.  Men see things from a perspective that women cannot.  The problem is men who believe in patriarchy have programmed women to think we are being godly and obedient if we allow men to be the “masters.”   This was never God’s intention.

By not allowing women to have influence as elders and pastors, the American church has one hand tied behind its back.  The preposterous thing about this is that men are the ones doing the tying.

It’s about to “get real” in our nation.  We are about to experience spiritual warfare like never before, and if men don’t untie the hand that is behind their back and let women fight alongside of them -  you will soon see entire churches fold. 

Churches will crumble because a woman held the key to victory and she wasn't allowed to have a seat at the table.

When Jesus was resurrected, Mary Magdalene was given the revelation of the gospel of Jesus Christ. She was the first person to understand that Jesus was alive and He was about to change EVERYTHING!  The Lord gave her directions to GO AND TELL his disciples this new revelation.

They refused to listen.

So the revelation came to them a few days later when Jesus appeared to them personally.  

Men – I plead with you - don’t be like the disciples who dismissed the most important revelation in history simply because it came from a woman. 

We did not labor in suffrage just to bring the vote to women but to allow women to express their opinions and become effective in government. Men and women are like right and left hands; it doesn't make sense not to use both.

Jeanette Rankin (First elected congresswoman 1916)

The Day God Called Me to Preach

I remember the day God called me to preach.

It was my 27th birthday, April 5, 2000.

I was having lunch at home before returning to my job as Worship Director at a Baptist church.  I was reading my Bible while eating and I felt the Holy Spirit highlight a specific verse.

Jeremiah 1

4 The word of the LORD came to me, saying, 5 “Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, before you were born I set you apart; I appointed you as a prophet to the nations.” 6 “Alas, Sovereign LORD,” I said, “I do not know how to speak; I am too young.” 7 But the LORD said to me, “Do not say, ‘I am too young.’ You must go to everyone I send you to and say whatever I command you. 8 Do not be afraid of them, for I am with you and will rescue you,” declares the LORD. 9 Then the LORD reached out his hand and touched my mouth and said to me, “I have put my words in your mouth.

10 See, today I appoint you over nations and kingdoms to uproot and tear down, to destroy and overthrow, to build and to plant.”

It was one of those times that I knew that I knew I had heard the Lord.  It fascinates me that He can speak to us in a 3–dimensional method.  I read it. I felt it. And I heard it in my spirit all at once.

After I finished reading these verses from Jeremiah, the Holy Spirit said something else to me.  He said, “Hold onto what I am saying, because no one is going to be happy about this!”

I didn’t really believe that no one would be happy for me.  I had lots of friends.  Surely God meant that people beyond my inner circle wouldn’t be happy about this.

But I immediately ran into the TRUTH of God’s warning.

I called a close friend because I was so excited at the revelation of my identity God had just laid out.  She was less than enthused.  I shared it with a pastor at my church when I returned after lunch and he said in a very condescending manner, “What?  Just like that?  God gives you the gift of preaching?”

My husband was supportive and encouraging.  But not one other person was glad to hear my news.

I felt very alone.

God used this time in my life to open my little world to the wider Body of Christ across the nation.  I was in desperate need of a mentor. Through a series of events the Holy Spirit brought me some books by Cindy Jacobs.

Through her books and ministry, Cindy Jacobs has had a profound impact on my life.  Cindy released her book  “Women of Destiny” in 1998 .  It answered all of my questions about being woman minister.  It helped me understand scriptures in a way that set me free, rather than the interpretation that my religious Baptist upbringing had twisted in my mind.

Cindy Jacobs has been an encouragement and a pioneer for women in ministry.  (Side note to all of you intercessors: I highly recommend her book “Possessing the Gates of the Enemy.” )

It has been fifteen years since the Lord first called me to preach.  I have done so on many occasions now.  Through the direction of the Holy Spirit, I have started my own ministry.  And today is another milestone…

With a great deal of awe about how the Lord works in mysterious ways – I am thrilled to tell you…that today I begin writing monthly articles for Cindy Jacob’s ministry, Generals International.

Each month, I will be a contributing writer for Generals.org.  I will be writing articles to help others on their path of transformation as they become like Christ. 

You can find my first article “Recognizing & OvercomingSpiritual Identity Theft” at this link.

I’m so glad to share my “Full Circle” testimony with you today.  I hope it encourages you to pursue what God has called you to do – no matter if people are happy about it or not!  

Follow God!